Symbol of the philosophers Stone. I attached an untreated red Spinel in the middle. The color red is the symbol of the highest realisation according to the Alchemical teachings. Red = gold. Highest purity.
Sufi soul meditation
This is a new composition recently made by me.
My recent artwork
Tibetan Buddhism and the culture of hypocrisy.
There is a new book about Sogyal Lakar about sex and violence in his organization Rigpa. The book is called: ‘Sex and violence in Tibetan Buddhism. The rise and fall of Sogyal Rinpoche;. Written by Mary Funnigan and Rob Hogendoorn. It discloses the cruelties and serious sexual misbehavior of Sogyal Lakar. The reason I post this on my blog is that, like in many other cults sex and violence are dominantly present. Its seems that in name of the Dharma people get mesmerized and think because of their ignorance about the teachings that its part of the training. Like having a sexual relationship with your lama will help you to attain enlightenment and breaking away from him (In Tibetan Buddhism woman have no rights at all), will breaking the ‘Samaya’ (spiritual bond between you and your lama) what means that one cause bad karma to yourself and you family. We see this back in Christian and other cults as well. Showing how one gets tortured in hell.
The West is a place to exploit and the so called West have no idea what spirituality is about the common attitude of those lama’s. Actually they never have explored the esoteric traditions we have in the West like Hermetism, Rosicrucianism, the Gnostics etc etc. The Western people ignorant of this think we don’t have a tradition here and all those enlightened lamas from Tibet know what they talk about. The West has what they like to have the most, money, technology, are open when it comes to sexuality. So that is really a good starting point from those so called lama’s. Haven’t you never noticed that those people wearing golden watches? Are driven in expensive cars? The West is truley a milk cow.
Me myself was involved in Rigpa for a couple of years (2004-2006) and I saw the culture of fear, the blind faith in Lakar. When he gave teachings I saw how many prominent members were so stressed and afraid something will go wrong. We saw it happening in Amsterdam where the inner circle of students were a hermetically sealed group of people. Open minded? Compassionate? Where are the teachings? Where is the tranquil state of mind? Where is the application of the dhrama I thought very often. When I started with Rigpa I thought he was indeed authentic. I did two retreats in France. I fell in this pitfall as well. Nevertheless I learned how to meditate and this was my only benefit. Nevertheless I learned a lot from it. And learned how its not working. The lama beats you up, rape, drain your resources etc. But its because one should break through thought habits and patterns. It opens the way to enlightenment! What about his patterns? His ego?
One should really read this book and its not something that stands on its own. From this moment on and in the future it still happens. Even ‘Rigpa’ his organization have removed the old board members, have taken rules to avoid all this misbehaving’s but still use the teachings from Sogyal! Actually see him as a genuine master and act accordingly. They just continue! How serious has that to be taken?
Actually all of the old board members and inner circle people are responsible as well. One of those is Kimeberly Poppe. She has a webside and she don’t mention she was very close to him and or to Rigpa, she was always present at his teachings (when I attended them at that time. She wrote course materials about meditation and gave meditation lessons for the Rigpa Sangha. When you visit her website now she don’t mention him at all! Only in general terms ‘studied with Tibetan masters. She could be also a victim of his sexual misconduct most likley and that is very sad, or she just knew and don’t wat to be associated with him because she give her own meditation courses. They (old inner circle members) knew what was going on. Also Patrick Gaffney one of the co-founders of Rigpa. Is he presucuted? He definiltey know how Sogyal was. Its seems to me he should be taken in account as well.
Also the Dalai Lama knew but keep on supporting Sogyal till 2017. I really don’t understand this. Isn’t it written in their teachings that realization is visable in the way people act? And how they apply the teachings? Like in many other religions hypocrisy is still going on mixed with power games and lust for money. To drain their members like vampires. In resources but also mentally. Inducing false believes brainwash them etc. Lakar was really good at group hypnosis and he knew how to apply this all the time. Human beings are venerable for this and therefore its important to have knowledge about those mechanisms.
So be warned about those charlatans.
Honor to the Great Spirit.
This is a new Trance composition I made. Its contributed to the Great spirit. Its a nice piece to do trance work and or visions quest.
Important note: all instruments are real instruments I played myself. Till the tiniest details of shakers. No samples from instruments are used. Only the church bells and the nature sounds are samples. I played those instruments live and most of the flute melodies came to me spontaneously when I was in a trance state. They just evolved during playing.
A new piece of music I made and I dedicated it to the Moon. Thursday it’s full Moon. This music can be used as a vision quest/ trance work in the realm of the Moon. All instruments are played by myself. No samples are used. Real rattles, shakers , drums/ Djembee and flute. I played it on intuition in a trance state myself. Ejoy!
Guitar solo E Phrygian
Some of you know I love to play guitar. Here is a recoding of a solo on a backing track.
Shaman spirit dance
In those strange times with Covid-19 we look for refuge in nature. Its a place that is very magical for us and a place of healing. We should reflect on what we are doing. Nature is always an endless source of inspiration. Based on this visit I became inspired to record a trance journey track. Its played with authentic instruments and I played all instruments myself. I love to play native American flute. Its played in a so called trance state guided by the spirits of nature. One can use this track for healing and rejuvination and meditate with it. Enjoy!
The Path of the A.’.A.’.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Publication in Class A.
Liber Porta Lucis sub figurâ X
I behold a small dark orb, wheeling in an abyss of infinite space. It is minute among a myriad vast ones, dark amid a myriad bright ones.
I who comprehend in myself all the vast and the minute, all the bright and the dark, have mitigated the brilliance of mine unutterable splendour, sending forth V.V.V.V.V. as a ray of my light, as a messenger unto that small dark orb.
Then V.V.V.V.V. taketh up the word, and sayeth:
Men and women of the Earth, to you am I come from the Ages beyond the Ages, from the Space beyond your vision; and I bring to you these words.
But they heard him not, for they were not ready to receive them.
But certain men heard and understood, and through them shall this Knowledge be made known.
The least therefore of them, the servant of them all, writeth this book.
He writeth for them that are ready. Thus is it known if one be ready, if he be endowed with certain gifts, if he be fitted by birth, or by wealth, or by intelligence, or by some other manifest sign. And the servants of the master by his insight shall judge of these.
This Knowledge is not for all men; few indeed are called, but of these few many are chosen.
This is the nature of the Work.
First, there are many and diverse conditions of life upon this earth. In all of these is some seed of sorrow. Who can escape from sickness and from old age and from death?
We are come to save our fellows from these things. For there is a life intense with knowledge and extreme bliss which is untouched by any of them.
To this life we attain even here and now. The adepts, the servants of V.V.V.V.V., have attained thereunto.
It is impossible to tell you of the splendours of that to which they have attained.
Little by little, as your eyes grow stronger, will we unveil to you the ineffable glory of the Path of the Adepts, and its nameless goal.
Even as a man ascending a steep mountain is lost to sight of his friends in the valley, so must the adept seem. They shall say: He is lost in the clouds. But he shall rejoice in the sunlight above them, and come to the eternal snows.
Or as a scholar may learn some secret language of the ancients, his friends shall say: «Look! he pretends to read this book. But it is unintelligible—it is nonsense.» Yet he delights in the Odyssey, while they read vain and vulgar things.
We shall bring you to Absolute Truth, Absolute Light, Absolute Bliss.
Many adepts throughout the ages have sought to do this; but their words have been perverted by their successors, and again and again the Veil has fallen upon the Holy of Holies.
To you who yet wander in the Court of the Profane we cannot yet reveal all; but you will easily understand that the religions of the world are but symbols and veils of the Absolute Truth. So also are the philosophies. To the adept, seeing all these things from above, there seems nothing to choose between Buddha and Mohammed, between Atheism and Theism.
The many change and pass; the one remains. Even as wood and coal and iron burn up together in one great flame, if only that furnace be of transcendent heat; so in the alembic of this spiritual alchemy, if only the zelator blow sufficiently upon his furnace all the systems of earth are consumed in the One Knowledge.
Nevertheless, as a fire cannot be started with iron alone, in the beginning one system may be suited for one seeker, another for another.
We therefore who are without the chains of ignorance, look closely into the heart of the seeker and lead him by the path which is best suited to his nature unto the ultimate end of all things, the supreme realization, the Life which abideth in Light, yea, the Life which abideth in Light.
There are some points to consider for those who are not an aspirant for long. What makes it hard for aspirants to persist on this path? One of the major reasons is that we only provide a blueprint with Oaths and tasks surrounded with books related to several practices.
The aspirant should find out for her/ himself how to put all this in their daily work. They also should work out ‘how’ they will operate. We don’t have ‘lessons’ so to speak. The lessons will open up while one is on the path and ding their work. And those lessons are different for each individual. We don’t have the industrial way that all people should do the same ‘lessons’ in order to progress like in old Aeonic schools like the old GD system. No, we should cut our own way through the jungle. Hope to find the easer eggs hidden in our system. If you look for a structure of ‘lessons’ and if you aren not able to think for yourself this path isn’t something for you. Hence see all those books ‘how to’ in Thelema as well! That will not very helpful to think for yourself isn’t it? Beside this, we all know that when people have a certain authority and write about it many tend to follow. Still the written word has lots of power especially when its backed with authority.
As Dion Fortune once said. ‘in occultism is no room for authority’. Take heed of all this carefully. Especially these days with social media etc. Many expose their opinions. And those who shout the hardest and sell the most books seem to have the most authority. But isn’t attainment revealed by what one is? How one does things? How much ego is involved or not? What did the one with authority accomplish? What kind of person is he/she? Actions is what makes us what we are. Words are easy, but words followed by actions claimed says something about the authenticity of the person. Are the words and actions in sync? Or is there a lot of discrepancy?
Thelema is for very many people too ‘hard’ becasue thinking for themselves is hard. And very few people are able to think for themselves. This is also not what we learn at school and in society. What we should do is rigorously get rid of aspects that hold us back from progress and uncover our ‘true nature’ also called “True Will’.
Same is true concerting our Holy Books. You should find out yourself what they mean to you, what they do to you. No one can tell and while you are doing the work, learning your chapter in due time the inner meaning will be revealed to you since something inside you ‘knows’ the meaning. The language is in such a way that it take attention to our subconsciousness and not to our ‘rational’ mind. Like symbols. The Holy Books are written in words and are as symbols. And they can mean very different from others. Thus understanding is for every individual ‘very’ different. As an unique ‘star’ we also will have unique insights that help us along the way. The insights and glimpse will pop up when you do certain work.
The ‘work’ itself will uncover for you wat will work for you. No one else can tell. I know for many that is very hard but magick cannot be taught in ‘lessons’. it’s an organic evolvement of the aspirant in his/her unique way.
Love is the law, love under will.
Pathworking with LAM on the 19th Path
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
A quote from my diary from a Pathworking with LAM on the 19th Path.
LAM working exploration of the 19th Path the 4th time. Started with full Samekh astrally. Then I started the process as usual with LAM. I entered the void or space. From that point on I stepped into the image of Atu XI. I was in the wasteland as before on a large field, everything was brownish red like on the card. I had a staff in the form of a snake and I wore a white robe. And I had a belt in the form of a ouroboros like on the magician’s card of the BOTA deck. A green ouroboros. I took my time and then I called in the genii in the usual way. I saw him floating in the air in the form of a ‘lion serpent’. I asked the genii to show me more on this path related to ABRAHADABRA. He complied and then I saw serpents on the horizon heading towards the red sphere like on the picture of the card. I took my time to let it all happen then I casted a circle with my staff in the sand. And from above it looked like the symbol of the Sun. A circle with a dot ‘me’ in the middle. Then I looked up and I saw the glyph I received last time the angle above in in 3D and below me the crescent as a cup like on that glyph but all in 3D and big. I saw the connection from this point with the abyss. Then I saw an opening that was the opening to connect with Binah. It was all black and I saw many golden pyramids. The so called city of pyramids. It was a similar image I saw when I did a trance work about 11 years ago. Then it was showed to me by Shekinah. I was standing half way the path of the 19th path as a footstep to peek beyond. I felt enormous powers that made me light headed. The sacrifice from life (blood) in the crescent to make the upward movement to the supernals on top of the Tree. It was an intense experience . After a while I went back to the astral temple. Thanked the Genii for its help. I was a bit nauseous because of the intense and powerful energies. I have had that experience on this level before which is in fact a positive sign. There I closed the session in the usual way. Duration of this pathworking was 25 minutes.
After the session I suddenly got inspired to connect the points from the glyph to the spheres of the Tree of Life. I use a transparent sheet to draw it. This is a picture of it.
After I drew it and connected everything I saw that it looked like an inverse Tree of Life but with the spheres on the same place. Only the drawing is different. And it also has a meaning as with all those things. Also a relation with the word TRINC and ABRAHADABRA. The word TRINC has its letters in Geburah and Chesed = the 19th Path. Yod and Nun in letters. The letters R and C on Chokmah and Binah and the T on top, in Kether. The numeral value according to Grant = 680. However its not clear how he calculated it. If I see the letters its 400, 200, 10, 50 and 8. Also related to the Atu’s; Universe XXI, the Sun XIX, the Hermit IX, Death XIII and the Chariot VII. If I add all those numbers it makes 69.
Also there were some verses from our Holy books Liber VII in relation to this pathworking what popped up in my head.
Prologue verse 10.
‘The perfume of Pan pervading, the taste of him utterly filling my mouth, so that the tongue breaks forth into a weird and monstrous speech’.
Chapter VI verse 59.
‘And the fish shall be sacrificed to Thee and the strong man crucified for Me, and Thou and I will kiss, and atone for the wrong of the Beginning; yea, for the wrong of the beginning’.
Obviously its part of an extended Work I did for months and more months to come with the aid of LAM on the Paths of the Tree of life with the help of the Genii of Liber 231. Its published to show the reader the idea and how symbols can develop. You should now that all these images and visions came at the moment and that I had no idea what to expect. Actually the less one expects the better and more accurate the information is. An open mind and in a high state of trance.
Love is the law, love under will.
© Frater Parusha
 A strong pulling power I sensed at that time as well.
 Page 173 ‘Outside circles of time’ new edition.