Cult like behavior Rigpa

As an ex student from Sogyal Lakar our suspicions became real. We noticed it once when we were in Lodeve, a small town nearby Lerab ling. There we saw Sogyal with some students. But they were acting very, very secretive and that was something we didn’t understand. Now we do now.

I was just a couple of years student at Rigpa, back in 2004 – 2006. But it influenced me a lot. I learned the basics of meditation and how to do retreats. So in that way it helped me. Fortunately after that I went my own way but now this news come to the surface. Its a shame that this is going on, plus that it seems like I posted on my Facebook page that those Tibetan lamas seem to look down to our Western life and they exploit it in its fullest. It has nothing to do with the dharma or with tantra as such. Its a very cheap way of manipulating the ignorant western students. Most of them are highly educated and have money to spend.


Old prominent members  wrote a letter to Sogyal to stop his unethical behavior. Here you can read the letter in English and in Dutch and I have to say its shocking. I hope it will be in trail soon and I hope it will stop. Its harmful on many levels and also harmful for the true practitioners of Varjayana.

‘If one presents the teachings clearly, others benefit. But if someone is supposed to propagate the Dharma and their behavior is harmful, it is our responsibility to criticize this with a good motivation. This is constructive criticism, and you do not need to feel uncomfortable doing it. In “The Twenty Verses on the Bodhisattvas’ Vows,” it says that there is no fault in whatever action you engage in with pure motivation. Buddhist teachers who abuse sex, power, money, alcohol, or drugs, and who, when faced with legitimate complaints from their own students, do not correct their behavior, should be criticized openly and by name. This may embarrass them and cause them to regret and stop their abusive behavior. Exposing the negative allows space for the positive side to increase. When publicizing such misconduct, it should be made clear that such teachers have disregarded the Buddha’s advice. However, when making public the ethical misconduct of a Buddhist teacher, it is only fair to mention their good qualities as


-The Dalai Lama, Dharamsala, India March 1993-

Its my sincere hope HH the Dalai Lama will take action on this as he expressed in the text above.


Letter about abuse

Webshop on line

I’m happy to announce that our webshop ‘Ancient Artifacts Workshop‘ is on line now. Feel free to visit it and shop if you see something of your liking. Also I sell luxe printed books from the Hellfire book club.

Some of the items I sell.





Review of my work from a Brother on the Path.

“Let the Magical Link be made strong!” (Aleister Crowley)


I want to share with you the inspiring craft of Frater Parusha. He works magical sigils and sacred symbols into corresponding metals, in accordance to principles of magick and alchemy. A couple of weeks ago, I received this beautifully crafted sigil of the A.’.A.’. (Sigillum Sanctum Fraternitatis A.’.A.’.). I opened it in my sanctum, and immediately, it was evident he had crafted it not only with care and excellence in a mundane sense, but also using his abilities as a trained magician and alchemist. Moreover, it was imbued with the force of a true aspirant and adept of our Order–a true sign of someone who doesn’t only read about magick, but practices it with zeal and verve.

In Magick in Theory and Practice (quoted above), Crowley dedicates a chapter to the subject of the “magical link.” He explains there that this magical link is one of the most neglected topics in magical literature, even though it is one of the most important factors of a magical operation. The magical link is what can connect the Will with the manifested intent of the operation. This is why this chapter is dedicated to the production of talismans, magical operations, and the work of the Philosophus. The Philosophus is one of the pivotal grades of the A.’.A.’., it decidedly determines who attains to the Lovers degree and who doesn’t, because it is the degree where the magical link is set and proven. Those unable to establish this link are doomed to remain arm-chair magicians at best, able to discuss theory but utterly unable to make their Will and magical force to manifest in this plane. In the end, the aspirant to the A.’.A.’. aims to unite the inner with the outer, and the high with the low. It is the magical link what makes this union possible, and the aspirant then becomes an Adept, having made of her body a talisman, consecrated and dedicated to the manifestation of the inner genius.

Frater Parusha’s work is a tangible example of the outer work of a magician and alchemist who is working beyond theory and delves into practice the right way.

“Let the Magical Link be made strong! It is ‘love under will’; it affirms the identity of the Equation of the work; it makes success Necessity.” (Crowley, MTP. Chapter XIV)

Koyote the Blind

Concerning the pentacles and items I make.

As most of you know I’m not only make this artwork, I consecrate them and I use them myself successfully as well. So the craft technique is required and the ability to consecrate them properly. Most of the pentacles available are nicely casted or mass produced. That are not the ones I make. The ones I make are special ones , a one of a kind unique pieces with a very special energy. (that is what I hear back from this who have them from me) They are very valuable tools that sometimes create very surprising situations. And that directly beats the idea that they are placebo’s. Naming Pentacles just placebo’s is an insult and definitely do no justice to the spirits and angels involved. They are truly Holy.


On our webshop site there will be an option to support my work in a patronage system. There will be 3 level in a way you can donate to support my work. Not only because I’ll do it but also its an old craft that magi from the past were doing. With my Work I will continue this Work so that it won’t be lost. Beside this its also a way to investigate the workings of those magical objects and one is able to experience that oneself. Many people these days read about it, which is good , but experiencing is a whole other story. The same is true about my Alchemical work. This “patronage’ will give you extra possibilities, like discount, gifts, information etc. So if you not want to buy items from me but you like my work you can be a Patron of ‘Ancient Artifacts Workshop’. more on this later when the webshop is on line.





Observation ‘Magical order temple of Starlight’.

It’s not something I take lightly nor something I like to do but in case of more trouble for others in the future I would like to put some of my personal observations online. So it must be clear that this is my personal opinion and experience. Since 2003 is a group active in the Netherlands called the Temple of Starlight. It’s head Ina Custers van Bergen I know from back in the 90’s. In this periode we, my wife and I, attempt to work together with Ina. This was not a success and we split up. We both took our own path. Many years later I came across her again on Facebook and we have contact. During that contact again I was hoping for working together. It was all promising. She asked me to do proofreading for het book ‘The Mystery of the Sea. The summer before the book came out I spend time proofreading this book. Then later on she invited me to join a temple training workshop in Rotterdam. I said I will do that. So I joined and I really enjoyed it. Its was nice to have something close and I met a nice group of people. So I decided to continue with the temple trainings.

At that time the only point I had was that the temple trainings were not cheap. Then because I’m a very curious person I decided to join her Solo magical training. This was a very expensive course (285 Euro’s now) for 5 lessons. But I really would like to dig deeper in the tradition she claims. She claims to be in the tradition of Dion Fortune and a legitimate lineage holder. Then I started the solo training. I discussed with her the possibilities of skipping some of the lessons because its all at the beginners level. Ina said that this is not possible. So I have had to start at the beginning. I know afterwards it was a mistake to do this  but I didn’t know that at the start.

I’m a practitioner for 24 years now but always keen on learning new things. So the first book I did partly I stepped in half way but the lessons were too boring for me. The only thing that was interesting were the Skype session every fortnight. We shared experiences and discuss the materials. This was the value for me. In the meanwhile I decided to continue with the temple trainings. My main goal was group work, and do the temple work nearby, not to be initiated. So far so good. Then there was a retreat at Autumn. I joined it together with my wife. It was just before I had a surgery. Then after the surgery things changed.

One of the things I found was remarkable is that the lessons in the solo training had no sources. It was without notes and without a bibliography. That was odd. I’m not used to that since I have a scientific approach concerning sources and written materials. Another point was that the English of the book was very badly written. Sometimes Dunglish, and strange sentences. That while there is a native English speaker in the group. The readability was sometimes bad too because pictures were to prominent so it wasn’t possible to read the text.

I asked Ina once why are the lessons so expensive? She replied “Because quality cost money”. I was puzzled. I wrote to her later that the quality of the written material is very bad and that I miss cross references. So its wasn’t very fair to ask that high prices. Because I was not active for a reasonable time in the Temple of Starlight because of the recovery of my surgery.  I had the time to evaluate the situation in the Temple of Starlight (ToS). I’m from a complete different tradition. I’m a Thelemite and I’m used to find things out for myself. Plus I’m used to think for myself and experiment and investigate the validity of my personal magical Work. During the retreat all this came on the surface. Also the whole accumulation of knowledge and experience. This was a good sign. However I had some critics about the contend of the lessons, the way we do rituals in the ToS etc. So I had a chat with Ina on Fb. In that chat I told her what my ideas were concerning the materials etc. She argued back and at a certain point she said she would like to drop the discussion. I told here that the solo training add nothing new to my knowledge or experience. She said later on it will be interesting for you. I thought, later? How many books later? Each book plus lessons is 285 Euro’s. Ina said she wanted to stop the conversation because fb chat isn’t the right place to do so. She was right but the main things were already said.

I slept over it and the next morning I decide to resign from the ToS. Then the day after as reply there was send an invoice. I have to pay 3x tempeltraining I didn’t attend because of my surgery. So I was shocked. I wrote back that I wasn’t willing to pay 3x 79 Euro’s for something I could not attend. The day after I had a letter by email from the Board! I even didn’t know there was a board. Plus a name under the letter I didn’t know. In that message he stated in the name of Ina that I should pay it because she was so nice to let it pay me in parts. It was a formal letter, not even written by herself but on her behalf. I was very angry about that. Especially that her reply on my resignation was an invoice! And that she hide behind rules to push me to pay. Is it all about money?

Why do I write this? Because its not an story in itself. There are many ex members that have a similar or even a more bizar experience with the Tos. So my story is even very mild. People who were member for many years who were put aside. I was just participant for 6 months. What makes it clear is that the ToS is really acting as a cult. There are Taboos. For example one isn’t allowed to discuss  the works of Crowley and when one has critics nothings has been done to it. Ina tend to acts like she needs feedback but she never change lessons as I’ve heard from ex members. Also Ina is very good at manipulating people and using NLP techniques to poison ones mind with her ideas. She never really is able to work with others. People have to work for her in the way she dictates! This explained to me why people suddenly were away. Or suddenly resigned. They saw how she operates and how she works. She is putting it in certain words so one is curious to continue. But the movie isn’t getting better. Does she train people to be Adepts and be independent thinkers? No not at all. During the trainings I was puzzled by the fact that none of the older members write rituals themselves for the ToS, were energetic passionate about what they are doing and why are there so few?   Its not allowed to have ones own ideas of doing things in the Temple. Its all planned and written out by Ina (not actually written but used from old Sol materials as some  other ex members told me. I don’t know since I never was involved into the SOL).

In my opinion its a harming way of dealing with members or ex members. What I also found out is that suddenly she had many mutual friends on Facebook. I asked others about it and they had the same experience. It seems she invite all the members from the friends list like my friend list in order to hope to benefit from it. Many friends on my fb friendslist are Thelemites or individuals who never like to be involved into the ToS. Its a very aggressive way of expanding the influence.  Also the fear she has what people say about her and the ToS. Have so called spies that report to her what has been said on the internet about the ToS.

I wrote this as a warning for those who have the intention to join. Not because I think the ToS is bad as such  but its not what it claims to be and it can cost you loads of money. The ToS has cult like tendenties  and the materials are very poor. its doesn’t have the quality its claims. Its not really contributing but something to the Hermetic tradition.

Another note, its very, very vague the claims Ina makes. Its not  clear what education she exactly have had and where. When one looks at the CV its all generally formulated and not specific. I wondering if she has any real higher education. I thinks its very dangerous to play with peoples mind and certainly when money is involved. So for all serious practitioners, be warned! Its not what it seems.

The website:




Cults and mind control


Concerning cults. What signs are there when one is part of a cult? I picked some out that are happen often these days when people are spiritually/magically involved into certain groups or orders. Its important to check these. And also they are more or less manifest in the behavior of the ‘leader’. Especially manipulation and using NLP techniques, induction from certain words (repeating them, promise things etc), that are used to justify the means. Non transparent way of dealing with costs, requirements what need to be bought in order to progress etc. Its very important to maintain critical thinking and using ones own intuition and common sense.
“How Cults Manipulate People
Many people now agree that cults frequently psychologically manipulate their membership to ensure conformity and control. Steve Hassan’s excellent book “Combating Cult Mind-Control” is a great starting point. The following points come from numerous sources. Not all of these are found in every cult but enough of them are found in most cults to make them very frightening places that inflict deep psychological damage on their membership.
1. Submission to Leadership – Leaders tend to be absolute, prophets of God, God Himself, specially anointed apostle, or just a strong, controlling, manipulative person who demands submission even if changes or conflicts occur in ideology or behavior.
2. Polarized World View – The group is all that is good; everything outside is bad.
3. Feeling Over Thought – Emotions, intuitions, mystical insights are promoted as more important than rational conclusions.
4. Manipulation of Feelings – Techniques designed to stimulate emotions, usually employing group dynamics to influence responses.
5. Denigration of Critical Thinking – Can go so far as to characterize any independent thought as selfish, and rational use of intellect as evil.
6. Salvation or Fulfillment can only be realized in the group.
7. End Justifies the Means – Any action or behavior is justifiable as long as it furthers the group’s goals. The group (leader) becomes absolute truth and is above all man-made laws.
8. Group Over Individual – The group’s concerns supersede an individual’s goals, needs, aspirations, and concerns. Conformity is the key.
9. Warnings of severe or supernatural sanctions for defection or even criticism of the cult – This can go so far as to apply to negative or critical thought about the group or its leaders.”ItsIt

On Alchemical Work

Some thoughts concerning Alchemy. Many think that doing advanced alchemical work is making them advanced alchemists. But I think that’s not the case, its vice versa, it’s the real alchemist that makes relative simple work advanced. This can be applied to many things in life.


Sir William Fettes Douglas The Alchemist 19th cent.


Psychology and esoterism


Psychology and esoterism. These days its very common that people tend to confuse mundane therapy with a esoteric Path. I think that the main issue is that it is a lack of true understanding the esoteric Path what it means and what it implies. Many think therapy will help them to progress on the esoteric path. This will be not the case since starting this path one should have the basics in order. I know many are drawn to it to solve personal issues and hope to find their answers in it.

When one follows a true esoteric path issue will come up and one should deal with it in order to progress. Unforunately many will be in more throuble then before they began on the esoteric path. And then blame the path for it. Psychology is just scratching on the surface of reality and just start to discover matters that are known for thousands of years to the inner traditions. The world is much bigger then modern psychology. A better approach is in my humble oppion to start solving issues as such (with or without psychology) and when one is strong enough really start on an esoteric path. When used wisely psychology can be helpful but only initially.

Magical Orders and groups

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

Concerning Magical and mystical orders. I wrote the following in a facebookgroup after a question about  what group or order would be the best choice.


Its important to remember that all Orders and groups are vehicles on the Path of Return, or the Great Work so to speak. As with everything in life it all depends on your own personal effort and dedication to the Work how one progress. Sometimes one needs an order to learn sometimes an individual teacher, some both or a mix with different other groups too. It is very depended on the nature of your own mindset and what works for you. Orders and groups are not a matter of good or bad, its more a question about what one should learn in our mundane life and on the path of occultism and how to integrate  and balance in our daily lives. Sometimes we need a so called ‘bad’ group in order to grow and sometimes a so called ‘good’ group. The question is, what makes it good or bad? No one can say actually. So you have to discover for yourself. Its a part of the process as well.
Taking steps on the path of occultism (magic mysticism etc) is not something that should be taken lightly. The first thing one should do is have everything in balance with your mundane life. Many people tend to go to groups or try to practice magic with a messed up life and mind, or just one of those. When this is the case this Path is dangerous since it will not help really. On the contrary it sucks people deeper into problems. This is what I see very often, or people tend to inflate their ego as big as our universe and claim they are the only ‘right’ order or group. There are hidden groups on other planes and when one is evolved enough after many years of testing and trials they will reveal themselves to the aspirant. But first real hard work has to be done in all our aspects of our being. No part of the foundation of the pyramid may be forgotten.”

We should take this quote from the preliminary section  from the Holy book of Thelema seriously into consideration. And deeply meditate on that. This text every time shows its value to me and open my eyes and peel away my illusions.


In the Name of the Initiator, Amen.
In the beginning was Initiation. The flesh profiteth nothing; the mind profiteth nothing; that which is unknown to you and above these, while firmly based upon their equilibrium, giveth life.
In all systems of religion is to be found a system of Initiation, which may be defined as the process by which a man comes to learn that unknown Crown.
Though none can communicate either the knowledge or the power to achieve this, which we may call the Great Work, it is yet possible for initiates to guide others.
Every man must overcome his own obstacles, expose his own illusions. Yet others may assist him to do both, and they may enable him altogether to avoid many of the false paths, leading no whither, which tempt the weary feet of the uninitiated pilgrim. They can further insure that he is duly tried and tested, for there are many who think themselves to be Masters who have not even begun to tread the Way of Service that leads thereto.
Now the Great Work is one, and the Initiation is one, and the Reward is one, however diverse are the symbols wherein the Unutterable is clothed.
Hear then the history of the system which this lection gives you the opportunity of investigating.
Listen, we pray you, with attention: for once only does the Great Order knock at any one door.
Whosoever knows any member of that Order as such, can never know another, until he too has attained to mastery.
Here, therefore, we pause, that you may thoroughly search yourself, and consider if you are yet fitted to take an irrevocable step.
For the reading of that which follows is Recorded.

From the Holy books of Thelema Liber LXI vel Causae.”


Love is the law, love under will.

The magic circle.

In many traditions it very common to use a magical circle to make clear to the spirit world, the working space for the practitioner.


In Liber ABA Part 2 is stated concerning the magical circle:

“The Circle announces the Nature of the Great Work.

Though the Magician has been limited in his choice of room, he is more or less able to choose what part of the room he will work in. He will consider convenience and possibility. His circle should not be too small and cramp his movements; it should not be so large that he has long distances to traverse. Once the circle is made and consecrated, the Magician must not leave it, or even lean outside, lest he be destroyed by the hostile forces that are without.

He chooses a circle rather than any other lineal figure for many reasons; e.g.,

1. He affirms thereby his identity with the infinite.

2. He affirms the equal balance of his working; since all points on the circumference are equidistant from the centre.

3. He affirms the limitation implied by his devotion to the Great Work. He no longer wanders about aimlessly in the world.

The centre of this circle is the centre of the Tau of ten squares which is in the midst, as shown in the illustration. The Tau and the circle together make one form of the Rosy Cross, the uniting of subject and object which is the Great Work, and which is symbolized sometimes as this cross and circle, sometimes as the Lingam-Yoni, sometimes as the Ankh or Crux Ansata, sometimes by the Spire and Nave of a church or temple, and sometimes as a marriage feast, mystic marriage, spiritual marriage, “chymical nuptials,” and in a hundred other ways. Whatever the form chosen, it is the symbol of the Great Work.”

My personal view on the matter is this. Many practitioners using a physical circle painted on cloth or drawn with chalk on the floor or drawn in the sand. All considering this its in my view very important, or better, the most important, that one ‘is’ already a magic circle, realized it. What do I mean by this? What I mean is that when we are purifying our lower part (lower binary (Ruach and Nephesh), our lower self and submit it to our Higher Self one is already radiating and this is in my view the ‘true’ magic circle. No lower entity or negativity can enter or carries away the practitioner with negative thoughts and deeds. The building blocks of this circle of light is the right motivation, a clear view on the matter, mastering of  our  thoughts, be aware of his/her own lower  mind and is under guidance of the Higher Self. I know cases in which people think when they only use a physical circle it will protect them from harm of the lower spirits they work with. (Why should one consult lower spirits for help in the first place when one can ask for help to the higher beings?)Yes, during the ceremony, but afterwards when the circle is down it bites them in the ass. Since the personality of the practitioner doesn’t deserve respect of the spirit world when not properly trained and ethically evolved . This explains that in many cases people evoke all kind of spirits for their pleasure or sensation end up in all kind of misery. So its more then important to work on ones personalty, be more selfless, more compassionate, more noble in order to built a real magic circle of light. Like what is known when the Buddha was tempted by the lord of death he transformed those armies into flowers. By the power of his realization (what means actualizing a real circle of light) those negative energies instantly were transformed. There are many other stories about this. Working hard to become a better person and realize the inner god is the best magical circle one can have. The symbolism goes much deeper then at the first glance.