Symbol of the philosophers Stone. I attached an untreated red Spinel in the middle. The color red is the symbol of the highest realisation according to the Alchemical teachings. Red = gold. Highest purity.
In this post you can see the recent artwork I crafted. I work on comission and if you are interested just drop me an email. All my items are consecrated and charged. Not two itmes are the same. I use Copper, Silver, gold and brass. Other metals are possible too. I also use real gemstones.
A new piece of music I made and I dedicated it to the Moon. Thursday it’s full Moon. This music can be used as a vision quest/ trance work in the realm of the Moon. All instruments are played by myself. No samples are used. Real rattles, shakers , drums/ Djembee and flute. I played it on intuition in a trance state myself. Ejoy!
In those strange times with Covid-19 we look for refuge in nature. Its a place that is very magical for us and a place of healing. We should reflect on what we are doing. Nature is always an endless source of inspiration. Based on this visit I became inspired to record a trance journey track. Its played with authentic instruments and I played all instruments myself. I love to play native American flute. Its played in a so called trance state guided by the spirits of nature. One can use this track for healing and rejuvination and meditate with it. Enjoy!
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
A quote from my diary from a Pathworking with LAM on the 19th Path.
LAM working exploration of the 19th Path the 4th time. Started with full Samekh astrally. Then I started the process as usual with LAM. I entered the void or space. From that point on I stepped into the image of Atu XI. I was in the wasteland as before on a large field, everything was brownish red like on the card. I had a staff in the form of a snake and I wore a white robe. And I had a belt in the form of a ouroboros like on the magician’s card of the BOTA deck. A green ouroboros. I took my time and then I called in the genii in the usual way. I saw him floating in the air in the form of a ‘lion serpent’. I asked the genii to show me more on this path related to ABRAHADABRA. He complied and then I saw serpents on the horizon heading towards the red sphere like on the picture of the card. I took my time to let it all happen then I casted a circle with my staff in the sand. And from above it looked like the symbol of the Sun. A circle with a dot ‘me’ in the middle. Then I looked up and I saw the glyph I received last time the angle above in in 3D and below me the crescent as a cup like on that glyph but all in 3D and big. I saw the connection from this point with the abyss. Then I saw an opening that was the opening to connect with Binah. It was all black and I saw many golden pyramids. The so called city of pyramids. It was a similar image I saw when I did a trance work about 11 years ago. Then it was showed to me by Shekinah. I was standing half way the path of the 19th path as a footstep to peek beyond. I felt enormous powers[1] that made me light headed. The sacrifice from life (blood) in the crescent to make the upward movement to the supernals on top of the Tree. It was an intense experience . After a while I went back to the astral temple. Thanked the Genii for its help. I was a bit nauseous because of the intense and powerful energies. I have had that experience on this level before which is in fact a positive sign. There I closed the session in the usual way. Duration of this pathworking was 25 minutes.
After the session I suddenly got inspired to connect the points from the glyph to the spheres of the Tree of Life. I use a transparent sheet to draw it. This is a picture of it.
After I drew it and connected everything I saw that it looked like an inverse Tree of Life but with the spheres on the same place. Only the drawing is different. And it also has a meaning as with all those things. Also a relation with the word TRINC and ABRAHADABRA. The word TRINC has its letters in Geburah and Chesed = the 19th Path. Yod and Nun in letters. The letters R and C on Chokmah and Binah and the T on top, in Kether. The numeral value according to Grant = 680[2]. However its not clear how he calculated it. If I see the letters its 400, 200, 10, 50 and 8. Also related to the Atu’s; Universe XXI, the Sun XIX, the Hermit IX, Death XIII and the Chariot VII. If I add all those numbers it makes 69.
Also there were some verses from our Holy books Liber VII in relation to this pathworking what popped up in my head.
Prologue verse 10.
‘The perfume of Pan pervading, the taste of him utterly filling my mouth, so that the tongue breaks forth into a weird and monstrous speech’.
Chapter VI verse 59.
‘And the fish shall be sacrificed to Thee and the strong man crucified for Me, and Thou and I will kiss, and atone for the wrong of the Beginning; yea, for the wrong of the beginning’.
Obviously its part of an extended Work I did for months and more months to come with the aid of LAM on the Paths of the Tree of life with the help of the Genii of Liber 231. Its published to show the reader the idea and how symbols can develop. You should now that all these images and visions came at the moment and that I had no idea what to expect. Actually the less one expects the better and more accurate the information is. An open mind and in a high state of trance.
Love is the law, love under will.
© Frater Parusha
[1] A strong pulling power I sensed at that time as well.
[2] Page 173 ‘Outside circles of time’ new edition.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
In the process of initiation are many obstacles. They are most of the time a combination of matters depending on the ‘soul maturity’ of the aspirant. They are personal but there are also many common obstacles that I observed in the training of students over the years.
My old tutor once wrote:
“(1) To act as a barrier between the world of spiritually ignorant awareness and the worldof higher understanding. That is, ignorance and understanding about the true nature of reality. The barrier that awakens is designed to keep immature souls (those not ready toaccept higher understanding), out of the realm of higher awareness”.
There are so to speak ‘natural’ barriers that prevent the student from advancing. One of them is to fail to see the nature of ‘reality’ (higher consciousness). This realty is beyond the conditioned way we see things as an individual and as part of the ‘herd’. Mainly by upbringing, education, and self-developed thinking patterns, social context. The process of initiation supposed to break down this barriers. And only than one is able to overcome them.
And:
“(2) To force anyone who is mature enough (soul-wise) to learn about what reality reallyis, before allowing the barrier to fully open for them. It is not the intention of nature toallow anyone to gain higher awareness without understanding (i.e. an education abouthow reality works.)
‘Understanding’ is a very important factor. If one ‘understands’ its easier to work on ones hang-ups. However by many of the aspirants they aren’t aware of their own condition that prevent them from understanding.
And:
‘On the path of initiation (higher personal development) a number of crises are reached,must be experienced, understood, and overcome, in order for the initiate to continueonward and upward. These crises are the physical manifestation (so to speak) of thebarrier … that which traditional occultism has called “The Threshold to the Mysteries”.
There are several minor crisis’s. One of them is ‘laziness’. This means that the aspirant just ignore instructions, don’t do the work they should do, ignore details, postpone their work etc. Thinking they know ‘better’ etc. The guardian of the threshold feeds this as its does always. One should be aware of this in order to overcome this. And act upon it.
The second minor crisis is ‘distraction’. This means that the student is involved in many unimportant matters (not productive in order to advance on the Path), like endless watching TV, socializing without any substance, have a full agenda of non-essential appointments etc. It’s the tutor’s job to assist the aspirant to reveal those matters/ patterns and help the aspirant to weed those matters out.
The primary crisis is ‘commitment’.
He wrote:
‘ Unconditional commitment is characterized by a deliberate and systematic focus on twothings:
1) Avoiding all distractions to success.
(2) Working towards taking the safest, quickest and most productive path to the goal.The student who actively takes care to work in this way can readily be consideredcommitted to the path.’
Commitment to ones Work in relation with the minor crisis’s involved. Many aspirants are getting offended when the tutor mentions those and correct them. This can be a painful process. One should arrange one’s life in a very different manner then one is used to. Many can’t let that go. Especially when one does things in a certain way for many years.
After this there will be many obstacles that will come up in the process. It all has to do with the level of soul maturity and how the tutor can assist the student in this. Therefore experience is required for the tutor. When those matters are addressed in the right way then the door is open to experience ‘real’ initiation. Especially at the start of the Outer order grades.
Love is the law, love under will.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Concerning certain subjects like the matter of the HGA. This subject is very difficult to discuss. Actually its not discussable at all since this process is extremely personal since we all have a very different ‘karma’ to deal with and level of advancement.
Especially this subject is something many students discuss in their early career of the Outer order grades of the A.’.A.’.. When the time is right it will explain itself naturally so its not something that can be described as such in 9 times of 10. It only creates more confusion since one has to do certain work before this will be revealed. In the earlier stages one is very vulnerable for self-delusion and phantasy. Since our judgement is clouded by presumptions and thought patterns and what not. We should always be on our guard concerning self-delusion since it can sneak in.
My point is, let it rest avoid conceptualization, do the Work and the reward will appear sooner or later. Many are impatient and want to attain in a couple of years. Usually this is simply impossible, our House has to be cleaned thoroughly before the God can indwell it.
Think about the words from Liber LVX chapter I:
7. Be not contented with the image.
8. I who am the Image of an Image say this.
9. Debate not of the image, saying Beyond! Beyond! One mounteth unto the Crown by the moon and by the Sun, and by the arrow, and by the Foundation, and by the dark home of the stars from the black earth.
10. Not otherwise may ye reach unto the Smooth Point.
11. Nor is it fitting for the cobbler to prate of the Royal matter. O cobbler! mend me this shoe, that I may walk. O king! if I be thy son, let us speak of the Embassy to the King thy Brother.’
To put it in some perspective. In some orders (Like the order in the documentary ‘Into the Great silence’), one is a novice for 20 years at least before one will be accepted as an ordained monk into Carthusian monks of the Grande Chartreuse. Solitary, Praying and being in silence for many, many years.
For the most of us it takes decades, how can we think that after a few years we attain?
Love is the law, love under will.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Based on a question someone asked me. He asked me how do you cope with death and what are your ideas about this topic?
Death is natural, its part of life and I treat it as such and its an initiation in itself. That is why the ancient Egyptians payed so much attention to it. The only problem we have usually is that we are too attached to persons and to certainties. There are different ways to look at death. I’m looking at it as its common in occultism. Death is not really death (an end) but a change into another plane of consciousness/ being. In the process the person dissolves (his/her parts that are impermanent are dissolving), this means the body and the lower parts of the mind (Nephesh and Ruach). The higher aspects of the mind our Nephesh, Chiah and Yechidah are going to a higher plane. Those higher aspects come back from incarnation to incarnation as long as the individual has to learn. That is why people can remember things they have earned from other incarnations and that will assist them in the present. Then there is a certain point the individual can choose to incarnate or not (high level Adept or Master). High evolved persons are very conscious about this, materialistic individuals are not. They will sink into a deep unconscious sleep. (The theosophists say that they dwell in Devachan for a long period. This state is a beautiful world projected by the mind or a hellish world (Avacchi) but they are both illusional. The lower one is evolved the longer this period. It has been written by the old masters that a high evolved being is in devachan for a split second and a lower evolved person aeons ( an Aeon is approx. 2000 years) There is no consciousness of time in this phase since time actually don’t exist. Its a product of the (rational) mind. This place (devachan) is where the soul can rest and prepare for the next phase of destiny in which the is highly depended on how the person lived its present life) . There is always help in the other side from compassionate (angelic) beings/ spirits which is always depended on ones merits. Nevertheless there is always help. So the phrase one is born alone and die alone is simply not true. Actually being alone is not possible. Feeling alone/ lonely is a product of self centeredness. Therefore it has been taught in many mystical magical traditions that one should be ’selfless’. selfless in the sense that one isn’t an independed (egoistic) being but and inter-depended being which forms the ‘universal brotherhood;. In which we are all part of.
What we can do is ‘IF the person permits’ (and NEVER without asking) , that we can tell what happens in the process. That will help the person to get rid of fears and thus in unfortunate incarnations blown by his/ her Karma. Many people, when they accepted their passing tend to become peaceful and pure. This is what I saw with my mother as well. What reveals is the ‘pure being’ which is part of every sentient being.
In case of my mother we (my wife and I) helped her in the process by telling her (by means of inner plane contact telepathically ), while we were in meditation what phases there are. As far as I have seen/ sensed this helped her a lot. And she was willing that I would help her. With ‘Love Empathy and Compassion . Those 3 aspects are crucial.
Those who don’t believe in anything or in re incarnation they will meet what they think. In general we will meet in the process what we were during this life. Its not a matter of 1 truth, its a matter of many possibilities like in life we can choose the life we project. What we think is what we are. What we think is what we create (like our present life) and that creation is maintained by thought patterns and habits. Its very easy to contact someone who is in the process of dying since his/ her senses are highly sensitive and they are more receptive about what we think. The dying person is highly clairvoyant ( because the gross part is dissolving) and receives any thought and idea projected on them. Therefore its important that we can calm our mind and learn to observe and ‘ be’ rather than get carried away in emotions. Its not bad to have emotions (its human) as long as they don’t overrule you or carry you away. Especially nasty for the dying person who gets pulled back all the time by the attachment of the loved ones. We die as we lived our lives.
At least that is how I look at it and experience what I’ve seen in meditations and trance states. I’m a natural clairvoyant and clairsentient which was a curse when I was a child and is a blessing now.
The calming down of the mind is something that has been built up over many years of daily practice of meditations and other practices. Thus by many hours of practice it becomes a natural state of mind that can be induced almost instantly. One is able to be in the eye of the storm wherein ‘ reality’ becomes more and more clear and illusion dissolves.
Its a simplified explanation how I see it. Its in reality much more detailed and deep than I can put in words.
Actually if one know how to deal with death one knows how to deal with live.
© Frater Parusha
Love is the law, love under will.
The Stele of revealing.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Based on The Book of the Law. And the Stele of revealing.
‘Aka Dua ,
Tuf ur biu,
Bi aa chefu,
Dude ner af an nuteru’.
I adore thee in the song:—
I am the Lord of Thebes, and I
The inspired forth-speaker of Mentu;
For me unveils the veilèd sky,
The self-slain Ankh-af-na-khonsu
Whose words are truth. I invoke, I greet
Thy presence, O Ra-Hoor-Khuit!
Unity uttermost showed!
I adore the might of Thy breath,
Supreme and terrible God,
Who makest the gods and death
To tremble before Thee—
I, I adore thee!
Appear on the throne of Ra!
Open the ways of the Khu!
Lighten the ways of the Ka!
The ways of the Khabs run through
To stir me or still me!
Aum! let it fill me!
Verse 38
(So that thy light is in me; & its red flame is as a sword in my hand to push thy order. There is a secret door that I shall make to establish thy way in all the quarters, (these are the adorations, as thou hast written), as it is said: )
The light is mine; its rays consume
Me: I have made a secret door
Into the House of Ra and Tum,
Of Khephra and of Ahathoor.
I am thy Theban, O Mentu,
The prophet Ankh-af-na-khonsu!
By Bes-na-Maut my breast I beat;
By wise Ta-Nech I weave my spell.
Show thy star-splendour, O Nuit!
Bid me within thine House to dwell,
O wingèd snake of light, Hadit!
Abide with me, Ra-Hoor-Khuit!
©Frater O.V.L.
Love is the law, love under will.
[1] As suggested to me in a working I did with LAM and exploring the 31the Path of Shin. The Genii Shabnax-odobor suggested to work this out. The Word AshNaHa came to me during the Working and has many meanings and realtions to the 31st Path but also to this ritual.
[2] One can choose a personal form like 93 times, or 11 times with great intensity. Adding any visualizations and/ or tonal variations as you seem fit.
[3] If you do this practice for someone else imaging the person standing in front of you and let the radiant light from the Stele enter his or her body. You also can extend this to more persons, a group or something you thing that needs some extra ‘power’. You can add anything you think that you want.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
My extended LAM working entered a new phase last Sunday after one Month of Work. With the help of LAM I’m exploring the 22 paths of the frontside of the Tree by the aid of the 22 Trumps or Atu’s. Every Path 7 times, one session a day. From down to up. Started with 32nd Path of Tav. The sessions are stuffed with information from both the Aeon of Horus (5) and MAAT (6). It will take me probably many years to decipher it as my understanding grows. Its very cryptic information, the language of the birds speaking from the subconsciousness. Also those high beings like LAM and also Aiwass and many others habitants of the multidimensional universe have a super intelligence and a superconsciousness way beyond ours, so they communicate in such a way that we should dig deep into it and try to find the bigger picture. I have to admit it makes me feel very ‘small’ compared to them. Also the Genii from Liber 231 are very helpful. This guide (for Tav ‘Thath “th’ Tith’ ‘thuth thi’) ‘is really helpful in showing the way through the Path and give me clues, information induce visions etc.
After this project I start with the exploration of the 22 Paths of the backside of the Tree also called the ‘Tunnels of Set.
For those who don’t know. Assuming LAM as a mask or enveloped completely in a blue egg (Hoor Paar Kraat) is an excellent protection in daily life as well. I experimented with it at my work. I do the astral assumption in the metro before I get to work. Once assumed no bad energies, entities have a chance. Its obvious of course since one should assume this when traveling the tunnels of Set. LAM protects the magician against malignant forces. The tunnels are very dangerous so doing it without the protection its sanity. So it protects in daily life as well. I was surprised by its effect.
Also other information is directly applicable in the present daily life as well. Showing me connections with other activities I do.
Last but not least it also can be a source for my Thesis which is part of the Inner Order Work of Ordo A.’A.’..
Pentacle.
During my LAM working I had the idea to make a Bee wax pentacle to symbolize the Work for me. During the trance works I had the following information. The complete design I already posted but I also receive these 3 symbols. I add those between the parts of Hoor Paar Kraat. Instead of the crosses in the first design. Also I add 22 K golden leaves on some parts ( triangle) It could be possible I get more info to add or details. Also you can see the bee wax carving. See the result below.
Note about the design:
LAM pentacle is ready. Made from beewax. With 22k gold leaves in the middle. Inspired by working with LAM and still working with him. The color of the letters is the color I have in my visions when I’m surrounded by a purple/ violet egg around me.I also added Abramelin oil to the wax.
Love is the law, love under will.
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