Obstacles in the process of initiation.

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

827f4c53f7d03196ae12da934fac2162In the process of initiation are many obstacles. They are most of the time a combination of matters depending on the ‘soul maturity’ of the aspirant. They are personal but there are also many common obstacles that I observed in the training of  students over the years.

My old tutor once wrote:

“(1) To act as a barrier between the world of spiritually ignorant awareness and the worldof higher understanding. That is, ignorance and understanding about the true nature of reality. The barrier that awakens is designed to keep immature souls (those not ready toaccept higher understanding), out of the realm of higher awareness”.

There are so to speak ‘natural’ barriers that prevent the student from advancing. One of them is to fail to see the nature of ‘reality’ (higher consciousness). This realty is beyond the conditioned way we see things as an individual and as part of the ‘herd’. Mainly by upbringing, education, and self-developed thinking patterns, social context. The process of initiation supposed to break down this barriers. And only than one is able to overcome them.

And:

“(2) To force anyone who is mature enough (soul-wise) to learn about what reality reallyis, before allowing the barrier to fully open for them. It is not the intention of nature toallow anyone to gain higher awareness without understanding (i.e. an education abouthow reality works.)

Understanding’ is a very important factor. If one ‘understands’ its easier to work on ones hang-ups. However by many of the aspirants they aren’t aware of their own condition that prevent them from understanding.

And:

‘On the path of initiation (higher personal development) a number of crises are reached,must be experienced, understood, and overcome, in order for the initiate to continueonward and upward. These crises are the physical manifestation (so to speak) of thebarrier … that which traditional occultism has called “The Threshold to the Mysteries”.

There are several minor crisis’s. One of them is ‘laziness’.  This means that the aspirant just ignore instructions, don’t do the work they should do, ignore details, postpone their work etc. Thinking they know ‘better’ etc. The guardian of the threshold feeds this as its does always. One should be aware of this in order to overcome this. And act upon it.

The second minor crisis is ‘distraction’. This means that the student is involved in many unimportant matters (not productive in order to advance on the Path), like endless watching TV, socializing without any substance, have a full agenda of non-essential appointments etc. It’s the tutor’s job to assist the aspirant to reveal those matters/ patterns and help the aspirant to weed those matters out.

The primary crisis is ‘commitment’.

He wrote:

‘ Unconditional commitment is characterized by a deliberate and systematic focus on twothings:

1) Avoiding all distractions to success.

(2) Working towards taking the safest, quickest and most productive path to the goal.The student who actively takes care to work in this way can readily be consideredcommitted to the path.’

Commitment to ones Work in relation with the minor crisis’s involved. Many aspirants are getting offended when the tutor mentions those and correct them. This can be a painful process. One should arrange one’s life in a very different manner then one is used to. Many can’t let that go. Especially when one does things in a certain way for many years.

After this there will be many obstacles that will come up in the process. It all has to do with the level of soul maturity and how the tutor can assist the student in this. Therefore experience is required for the tutor. When those matters are addressed in the right way then the door is open to experience ‘real’ initiation. Especially at the start of the Outer order grades.

Love is the law, love under will.

Concerning certain subjects and self-delusion.

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

 

Concerning certain subjects like the matter of the HGA. This subject is very difficult to discuss. Actually its not discussable at all since this process is extremely personal since we all have a very different ‘karma’ to deal with and level of advancement.

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Especially this subject is something many students discuss in their early career of the Outer order grades of the A.’.A.’.. When the time is right it will explain itself naturally so its not something that can be described as such in 9 times of 10. It only creates  more confusion since one has to do certain work before this will be revealed. In the earlier stages one is very vulnerable for self-delusion and phantasy. Since our judgement is clouded by presumptions and thought patterns and what not. We should always be on our guard concerning self-delusion since it can sneak in.

My point is, let it rest avoid conceptualization, do the Work and the reward will appear sooner or later. Many are impatient and want to attain in a couple of years. Usually this is simply impossible, our House has to be cleaned thoroughly before the God can indwell it.

Think about the words from Liber LVX chapter I:


7. Be not contented with the image.

8. I who am the Image of an Image say this.

9. Debate not of the image, saying Beyond! Beyond! One mounteth unto the Crown by the moon and by the Sun, and by the arrow, and by the Foundation, and by the dark home of the stars from the black earth.

10. Not otherwise may ye reach unto the Smooth Point.

11. Nor is it fitting for the cobbler to prate of the Royal matter. O cobbler! mend me this shoe, that I may walk. O king! if I be thy son, let us speak of the Embassy to the King thy Brother.’


To put it in  some perspective. In some orders (Like the order in the documentary ‘Into the Great silence’), one is a novice for 20 years at least before one will be accepted as an ordained monk into  Carthusian monks of the Grande Chartreuse. Solitary, Praying and being in silence for many, many years.

For the most of us it takes decades, how can we think that after a few years we attain?

Love is the law, love under will.

On Death.

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

 

Based on a question someone asked me. He asked me how do you cope with death and what are your ideas about this topic?

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Death is natural, its part of life and I treat it as such and its an initiation in itself. That is why the ancient Egyptians payed so much attention to it. The only problem we have usually is that we are too attached to persons and to certainties. There are different ways to look at death. I’m looking at it as its common in occultism. Death is not really death (an end)  but a change into another plane of consciousness/ being.   In the process the person dissolves (his/her parts that are impermanent  are dissolving), this means the body and the lower parts of the mind (Nephesh and Ruach). The higher aspects of the mind our Nephesh, Chiah and Yechidah are going to a higher plane. Those higher aspects  come back from incarnation to incarnation as long as the individual has to learn. That is why people can remember things they have earned from other incarnations and that will assist them in the present. Then there is a certain point the individual can choose to incarnate or not (high level Adept or Master). High evolved persons are very conscious about this, materialistic individuals are not. They will sink into a deep unconscious sleep. (The theosophists say that they dwell in Devachan for a long period. This  state is a beautiful world projected by the mind or a hellish world (Avacchi) but they are  both illusional. The lower one is evolved the longer this period. It has been written by the old masters that a high evolved being is in devachan for a split second and a lower evolved person aeons ( an Aeon is approx. 2000 years) There is no consciousness of time in this phase since time actually don’t exist. Its a product of the (rational) mind. This place (devachan) is where the soul can rest and prepare for the next phase of destiny in which the is highly depended on how the person lived  its present life) .  There is always help in the other side from compassionate (angelic) beings/ spirits  which is always depended on ones merits. Nevertheless there is always help. So the phrase one is born alone and die alone is simply not true. Actually being alone is not possible. Feeling alone/ lonely is a product of self centeredness. Therefore it has been taught in many mystical magical traditions that one should be ’selfless’. selfless in the sense that one isn’t an independed (egoistic)  being but and inter-depended being which forms the ‘universal brotherhood;. In which we are all part of.

What we  can do is ‘IF  the person permits’ (and NEVER without asking)  , that we can tell what happens in the process. That will help the person to get rid of fears and thus in unfortunate incarnations blown by his/ her Karma. Many people, when they accepted their passing tend to become peaceful and pure. This is what I saw with my mother as well. What reveals  is the ‘pure being’ which is part of every sentient being.

In case of my mother  we (my wife and I) helped her in the process by telling her (by means of inner plane contact telepathically ), while we were in meditation what phases there are. As far as I have seen/ sensed this helped her a lot. And she was willing that I would help her. With ‘Love Empathy and Compassion . Those 3 aspects are crucial.

Those who don’t believe in anything or in re incarnation they will meet what they think. In general we will meet in the process what we were during this life. Its not a matter of 1 truth, its a matter of many possibilities like in life we can choose the life we project. What we think is what we are. What we think is what we create (like our present life)  and that creation is maintained by thought patterns and habits. Its very easy to contact someone who is in the process of dying since his/ her senses are highly sensitive and they are more receptive about  what we think. The dying person is highly clairvoyant ( because the gross part is dissolving) and receives any thought and idea projected on them.  Therefore its important that we can calm our mind and learn to observe and ‘ be’  rather than get carried away in emotions. Its not bad to have emotions  (its human) as long as they don’t overrule you or carry you away. Especially nasty  for the dying person who gets pulled back all the time by the attachment of the loved ones. We die as  we lived our lives.

At least that is how I look at it and  experience what I’ve seen in meditations and trance states. I’m a natural clairvoyant and clairsentient which was a curse when I was a child and is a blessing now.

The calming down of the mind  is something that has been built up over many years of daily practice of meditations and other practices. Thus by many hours of practice it becomes a natural state of mind that can be induced almost instantly. One is able to be in the eye of the storm wherein ‘ reality’ becomes more and more clear and illusion dissolves.

Its a simplified explanation how I see it. Its in reality much more detailed and deep than I can put in words.

Actually if one know how to deal with death one knows how to deal with live.

 

© Frater Parusha

 

Love is the law, love under will.

Liber AShNaHa

Liber AShNaHa[1]

‘For healing and rejuvenation’.

The Stele of revealing.

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Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

 

Based on The Book of the Law. And the Stele of revealing.

 

  1. Preliminary practice banishing rituals as preferred (LBRP or Star Ruby or another according to one’s tradition.). Meditation. Calm abiding for about 10 minutes. Or more if one seems fit. Use implements of your choice. For incense I will suggest the incense of Abramelin, and the Oil of Abramelin.

 

  1. Star Sapphire ritual, or the traditional invoking lesser hexagram ritual. Additionally one also can do the Middle Pillar Ritual after this.

 

  1. Sit in front of the Stele of revealing or the Tarot Trump XX The Aeon from the Thoth Tarot deck. Gaze on the picture for about 5 minutes. Just gaze nothing else.

 

  1. Close your eyes. And rise up with your astral body. Enter your astral Temple or place what you prefer.

 

  1. Once in your astral temple open all your inner senses. Try to experience everything you see with the 5 astral senses as intense as possible. Then face East.

 

  1. Do the preliminary invocation from Liber Samekh. As intense as possible. When that is done take some time to experience the changes in the atmosphere. Don’t judge what you see hear or what not. Just let it happen.

 

  1. Then in the East visualize a large door with the picture of the Stele on it or the Card The Aeon XX.

 

  1. Then start chanting the Mantra from the Stele[2]:

‘Aka Dua ,

Tuf ur biu,

Bi aa chefu, 

Dude ner af an nuteru’.

 

  1. Recite or read the following verse from the Book of the Law Verse 37 – 38 Chapter III. Verse 37.

 

I adore thee in the song:—

I am the Lord of Thebes, and I

     The inspired forth-speaker of Mentu;

For me unveils the veilèd sky,

     The self-slain Ankh-af-na-khonsu

Whose words are truth. I invoke, I greet

     Thy presence, O Ra-Hoor-Khuit!

Unity uttermost showed!

     I adore the might of Thy breath,

Supreme and terrible God,

     Who makest the gods and death

To tremble before Thee—

     I, I adore thee!

Appear on the throne of Ra!

     Open the ways of the Khu!

Lighten the ways of the Ka!

     The ways of the Khabs run through

To stir me or still me!

     Aum! let it fill me!

 

Verse 38

(So that thy light is in me; & its red flame is as a sword in my hand to push thy order. There is a secret door that I shall make to establish thy way in all the quarters, (these are the adorations, as thou hast written), as it is said: )

 

The light is mine; its rays consume

  Me: I have made a secret door

Into the House of Ra and Tum,

  Of Khephra and of Ahathoor.

I am thy Theban, O Mentu,

  The prophet Ankh-af-na-khonsu!

By Bes-na-Maut my breast I beat;

  By wise Ta-Nech I weave my spell.

Show thy star-splendour, O Nuit!

  Bid me within thine House to dwell,

O wingèd snake of light, Hadit!

  Abide with me, Ra-Hoor-Khuit!

 

  1. Remain in silence. Imagine you enveloped yourself with the brilliance light of the Stele. Let it enter your whole body[3].

 

  1. Stay in the receptive state of mind for a while and then close the session. Write down your experiences in your magical diary.

 

 

©Frater O.V.L.

 

 

 

Love is the law, love under will.


[1] As suggested to me in a working I did with LAM and exploring the 31the Path of Shin. The Genii Shabnax-odobor suggested to work this out. The Word AshNaHa came to me during the Working and has many meanings and realtions to the 31st Path but also to this ritual.

[2] One can choose a personal form like 93 times, or 11 times with great intensity. Adding any visualizations and/ or tonal variations as you seem fit.

[3] If you do this practice for someone else imaging the person standing in front of you and let the radiant light from the Stele enter his or her body. You also can extend this to more persons, a group or something you thing that needs some extra ‘power’. You can add anything you think that you want.

LAM working

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

 

 

 

 

My extended LAM working entered a new phase last Sunday after one Month of Work. With the help of LAM I’m exploring the 22 paths of the frontside of the Tree by the aid of the 22 Trumps or Atu’s. Every Path 7 times, one session a day. From down to up. Started with 32nd Path of Tav. The sessions are stuffed with information from both the Aeon of Horus (5) and MAAT (6). It will take me probably many years to decipher it as my understanding grows. Its very cryptic information, the language of the birds speaking from the subconsciousness. Also those high beings like LAM and also Aiwass and many others habitants of the multidimensional universe have a super intelligence and a superconsciousness way beyond ours, so they communicate in such a way that we should dig deep into it and try to find the bigger picture. I have to admit it makes me feel very ‘small’ compared to them. Also the Genii from Liber 231 are very helpful. This guide (for Tav ‘Thath “th’ Tith’ ‘thuth thi’) ‘is really helpful in showing the way through the Path and give me clues, information induce visions etc.

 

 

After this project I start with the exploration of the 22 Paths of the backside of the Tree also called the ‘Tunnels of Set.

For those who don’t know. Assuming LAM as a mask or enveloped completely in a blue egg (Hoor Paar Kraat) is an excellent protection in daily life as well. I experimented with it at my work. I do the astral assumption in the metro before I get to work. Once assumed no bad energies, entities have a chance. Its obvious of course since one should assume this when traveling the tunnels of Set. LAM protects the magician against malignant forces. The tunnels are very dangerous so doing it without the protection its sanity. So it protects in daily life as well. I was surprised by its effect.

Also other information is directly applicable in the present daily life as well. Showing me connections with other activities I do.

Last but not least it also can be a source for my Thesis which is part of the Inner Order Work of Ordo A.’A.’..

 

Pentacle.

During my LAM working I had the idea to make a Bee wax pentacle to symbolize the Work for me. During the trance works I had the following information. The complete design I already posted but I also receive these 3 symbols. I add those between the parts of Hoor Paar Kraat. Instead of the crosses in the first design. Also I add 22 K golden leaves on some parts ( triangle) It could be possible I get more info to add or details. Also you can see the bee wax carving. See the result below.

Note about the design:

LAM pentacle is ready. Made from beewax. With 22k gold leaves in the middle. Inspired by working with LAM and still working with him. The color of the letters is the color I have in my visions when I’m surrounded by a purple/ violet egg around me.I also added Abramelin oil to the wax.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Love is the law, love under will.

On magical pentacles, lamens and seals.

On magical pentacles, lamens and seals. And the Art of making them.

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

I observed that when one engrave the metal with a burin it seems that it is very powerful. Much effort is put into the fabrication of a Seal or pentacle. That is reflected in its magical force it has. Its not like some think that one has to believe in it and that is is just a psychological projection of the believer. It always works if one believe it or not. Everyone who is sensitive will feel that. Therefore I ask people to feel and describe what they feel when I put a pentacle/ talisman in their hands in a pouch.

 

A well and skilled made pentacle envelopes a magical energy and holds it, related to the beings/ entities and energies written on it. The magician creates the magical link.

Like in the old days, its not for nothing the old mages suggested to engrave by a consecrated burin. I did consecrated my burin as well.

Also I add gemstones to them. In harmony to the seal or pentacle. Below a magical ring of Venus.

Casting. Later on Paracelsus made talismans by casting. He asked a metal worker to forge them. But the secret of casting is that one use specific types of metals and other alloys, with the right correspondences and combine them alchemically. It required a lot of skill, alchemical/ magical and the ability to successfully link them. Its therefore one of the skills the ‘Philosohus’, 4 = 7 grade‘ from our Nobel order of the A.’.A.’. should be able to to that. Its part of her training.

Therefore those talismans/ pentacles are so powerful. Casting as such isn’t, but in an alchemical way it is. That is forgotten these days and therefore my pieces are ‘one of a kind’ magical items. I cannot mass produce them so to speak. Every piece is a piece of Art in which I put a lot of effort and magical stamina.

That is the difference with the ‘commercial pieces’, which a look very nice but have no power as such. Unless the maker is able to successfully forge the link. Nevertheless a real mage can consecrate everything even written on a piece of toilet paper. But the uninitiated costumer who just want to ‘buy’ power isn’t able to use it properly. And could be overwhelmed by the power of a real consecrated piece.

 

Sometimes people ask me. Can you just teach me how to make them please ? They completely miss the point what is behind all this and that many years of magical training and practice I have had in order to be able to make them. What they mean is obviously the technique, the metal work but that is just a very small part, actually the smallest part of the Work. Al real initiates know this. Its a form of alchemy. When I make tinctures or other alchemical products the principal is the same. When I make a tincture, I communicate with the plant spirit and ask their permission to work with it. Why are Spagyrics so potent because of this principle. It is much more than putting plants in alcohol and then one has a tincture. Someone sensitive enough will sense the difference.

 

 

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Love is the law, love under will.

© Frater Parusha

Creating the Inner Temple

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

We all know as magicians that visualizations are the key to contact the higher worlds. In the basic training we start with simple visualizations and calming  the mind in order to get a steady image. A calm mind is required because when we get distracted all the time nothing happens. When we are progressing on the path we become more and more able to visualize complex pictures. One step further we can visualize in 3 dimensions. When one is on this level and is able to hold the image and space for a longer period of time we can progress in visualizing our Inner or Temple.

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We start simple with a personalized environment like the floor, the walls, the ceiling then we continue to add our magical items in it. It also can be something natural or very abstract. Over time this temple becomes more and more vivid. When this level is reached we are able to do rituals and other practices in this temple. One of the things what happens is that this temple is also a place wherein we are able to contact beings on all kind of levels and also the so called Inner plane Adepti. What happens is this. Because we create an astral temple it also establish a connection with all the others who do so as well, plus we can tap into the ancient currents we seek connection with. All the mages of the past and present do this Work and that makes it easy to connect to others as well. The beginner think, oh this is just imagination, its not real. Usually our Ruach, our rational thinking , makes the standards what is real or not. But this is one of the barriers we have to overcome. Ultimately its all an illusion[1] (Maya) but we as magicians should be able to work with the illusions in order to create our own universe as a tool to attain illumination and thereby destroy everything to gain a new level of existence.  But because we are not used to it and when one is not familiar with this its far from the truth. This world is as real as the material world but it’s a fluid world. And we should adapt ourselves to this level. Kabbalisticly speaking we acting in the world of ‘Yetszirah’ formation and beyond. One should be able to pierce the veil of Paroketh. Another things what happens is that sometimes visions occur or things appaear in the environment that is not visualized but has an excistence it its own. This is a sign you do the job very well. Then the interacting starts with the other world (s).

It takes time to get used to it and to perfect this method but once its there it easy to slip in and out and do rituals and workings there, like healing, gaining information, get teachings, fixing issues, get information about symbols, objects, regenerate etc etc. Everything is possible. The only limit is our imagination. When done effectively one experience this immediately in our physical world (Assiah). The inner planes alsotest  us if we are worthy to do this type of work.  This is a real initiation in itself.

In my personal experience its an ideal way of get rid of distortions and stress when one is at work. Or when one is in a very stressful situation. Or a means to heal oneself and others. When I did this then I have an instant effect. Sometimes I even do this when I’m in a crowded metro with my eyes open. The ability is strongly connected to the other articles (hidden meaning of symbols and Spectre) I wrote since all is strongly interconnected. As in all cases Spectre plays a great role in this as well. Needless to say is that we can use all our inner senses on this plane and that only makes the connection stronger. Like smelling the insense, feeling the tiles, hearing sounds and taste the wine. It’s a start to travel to all kinds of worlds and to explore all kinds of worlds. I wish you a good journey!

Love is the law, love under will.

©Frater Parusha


[1] When something is an illusion that will not say that on this plane (assaiah) its not ‘real’ as such. Every ‘plane’ has his ‘realness’ since on that plane we function it all depends on the perception and state of mind. Knowing that ‘reality’ is changeable means that we can create what help us and others on the Path. Only beyond the Abyss there is union.

The hidden meaning of symbols

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

This essay is about symbols Inspired by a chat I have had via Facebook chat.

These insights are applicable on all kinds of archetypes and all other occult symbols. But also can be used on other things.

Concerning symbols there are different ways to read their meaning. The conceptual meaning is materialized in matter, in this case the symbol. Behind a symbol is an enormous reservoir of meanings developed over sometimes thousands of years. At the first glance it seems that a symbol is just a concept or image but that is not the case. Symbols can also represent energies that are developed by thoughts (thought forms) and repeated use for a certain purpose. Those thoughts can be emotions as well. Like for example the swastika. A symbol used in the east for positive purposes and later abused by the nazi’s .

To read symbols by its inner meaning one need to be in another state of mind, in a trance state so to speak. Observing symbols but also objects from this state of mind reveals many other worlds that there are hidden therein. Those trance states produce new images and experiences. It opens worlds that seem to be not ‘real’ but are real on the subtle levels of consciousness. To read this hidden images and experiences is the ‘occult’ menainf of that particular symbol.

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The process can be reversed as well. A symbol, or item made by the magician  can be charged by a certain energy the magician desire to charge it with. This can be done in different ways, the most common is by ritual. In a ritual the magican also enhance his/her consciousness and in this trance state the energy can be directed to the object. In this way amulets and talismans can be charged. Someone who is sensitive enough can feel those energies when heshe hold the object or look at it. A lay person most likely feels nothing consciously but unconsciously since the ‘sub conscious’ receive this energy without knowing it. And respond accordingly. The problem with the lay person is that his chitta of mind stuff is too agitated. This brings a lot of distortion and therefore one cannot see it clearly. Sometimes they say they feel attracted to a certain object or symbol without knowing why.

When the magician has the knack of charging its easy for him/her to charge objects. The connection with the higher levels of consciousness is established and easy to project. Nevertheless it takes many years of hard work and training to gain this ‘knack’.  Its like playing a violin, at the start its very difficult but when one Is on a certain level one only have to keep in shape by practice in order to play the instrument. It looks like it takes no effort to play it. This is one of the problems nowdays that people have the impression that one can learn those things by reading a few book and after a couple of years. But we all accept that a concert violist should practice 6-8 hours a day. Out craft takes many hours of practice as well and on top of it its even more difficult since we are the object of the training. We are the ones that should reflect and work on ourselves in order to gain this ability. Which is a side effect of inner awakening. Its not a goal but one of the things that comes up when one trains humbly and with integrity without the lust of result.

This training to tap into this higher consciousness by magical training and meditation. This chance one perception and one becomes receptive. Then images are not just a concept any more or a paradigm. But beyond this. Meditation (calming the mind), visualization, skrying in the spirit vision, and inducing  a trance state connect us to this level. Our rational filter (Ruach) our thinking mind, our hang-ups and  thought habits limits our perception. We should go beyond that. As long we can’t do that we can’t perceive this hidden meaning. Our ego prevent this.  As Gurdieff said we are asleep and we should wake up. In an ordinary state of mind we see the world like we look at it through a very small hole. Every time we make a step forward the hole becomes bigger. And then we have small glimpses of what is called illumination. Also we have to deal with our dark side so to speak. “Spectre” also prevent our progress. That is his job. So knowing what our dark side is and explore it is needed in order to work with it. It are the two sides of one coin. Overcoming ‘fear’ fear that is induced by Spectre is a big step forward. There are number of methods, Yoga, tantra, mediation, rituals etc what I said before. But when it comes to actually doing it people get scared and give up. Its is so close to ourselves that we are scared of it. We are not used to that. When we look at science, science looks outside. Project things outside ourselves. That is what we do in our education too. As long as we are not really involved we feel safe. This keeps us trapped in the matrix so to speak. But really coming in terms with ourselves, connect to our self, our True Self is very hard work and difficult for us, at the same time it is always there but we are not aware of it. We don’t reconise it and thus its called ‘being asleep’. The unity of the will, desire and belief as Grant calls it. Imagination and will are the keys to it. Shifting our awareness, obtain another state or altered state of consciousness.

Ultimately the process and accomplishment of the ‘Great Work’ is to obtain Unitiy, solve duality by crossing the ‘Abyss’. This awarenes from the ‘different point of view’ is what we should accomplish. The so called state between dreaming and dreamless sleep which Grant called the “Mauve zone”  by the means of dream control.  As Kenneth Grant wrote:

‘ The universe, as the word itself declares, is a single world. The duality of subject/object does not obtain in that state: ‘it is as it is. […] in the forefront of consciousness should be held firmly the awareness that all is seen or experienced is a manifestation of the Self, not ‘my’ -self or ‘your -self, or any specific self. Th eterm Self signifies only objective Consciousness; it is therefore without Subject, or it may be considered as pure subjectivity, There will be experieneced a gradual, in some cases a sudden, change of viewpoint, a sign that the centre of awarenessis shifting from the phenomenal to teh noumenal, from the world of appearance to its underlying reality. The Great Work consists in the stabilising of this state of awareness. All sense of difference will vanish, until the ultimae difference is finally abolished’. (Kenneth Grant, Outer gateways, p 151).

Love is the law, love under will.

 

©Frater Parusha

Words and phrases.

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Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

We all know that words and phrases have power. Its known in commercials but also the student of the occult knows that words and phrases can be very powerful. For good and for bad. Nothing wrong with it of course. But, what we observe especially in the occult world but also in others parts of occultism people tend to copy phrases without exactly knowing what it means, nor have real experience with it. Then a word of phrase becomes a ‘phantasy’. My wife was reading in a book from Osho about Tantrism (Tantra het allerhoogste inzicht Nederlandse vertaling) and also Osho mentions this in that book. Ouspensky even created a ‘word’ about this phenomenon . He called it ” imaginazione’, (imagination).

If someone came to him and expressed about his inner experiences and started with ‘my kundalini has risen’ or  I’ve seen the light, my chakra’s are open’ he stopped immediately and said “Imaginazione”. What do you mean (the individual said)? He said  ‘the illness of the imagination’, you walked into a trap. Stop!

To express experiences in words  we use metaphors, because the unutterable is difficult to express in plain language. When we read poetry its just imagination, the imagination of the poet. Nothing wrong with it. When its about science we stick to facts and repeated experiment to test ones thesis. But in the inner world, our inner deep experiences, it very hard to express it in plain words. Then images come in, symbols, paintings, drawings etc. Images are the bridge between the phenomenal world to the spiritual world. That is why visualizations are so important. I noticed it also when I did the ‘Abramelin Working’ and now afterwards. Certain experiences are very hard to describe and experiences continues mixed in our daily life.

The point of this writing is that these days and I guess as long as tere are people there are groups of people who express themselves in  the words others used. For example; my heart chakra is blocked, or ‘my Holy guardian Angel’ said this and said that, or the Kundalini has risen. Or I’m under a psychic attack (when something goes wrong). This group of people ‘imagine’ that they have those experiences, its phantasy. Its repeating parts of phrases or words from others because the ‘think’ they have had the same experience. In other words they parroting what others who are in authority say or those who they think are in authority.

So when does one knows its a genuine experience? There are a few signposts that are based on my experience about the subject:

  • the experience came unexpected and has an unique implication. or came after a long and thorough Work but manifested in an authentic way (not fabricated).
  • the person who experienced it don’t talk (much) about it or only talk about it to those who he/she trust.
  • its not a phrase or word dropping to impress others, or to convince they do matter and are significant as well.
  • its very hard to express in words, it sometimes finds ways to express itself that can be very unexpected.
  • it takes many  years before one has the ‘knack’ to really ‘know’ its real or imagination. Especially beginners drop words and phrases from others all the time. (just look around on facebook groups or forums)
  • Daily hard practice for many years backup by loads of knowledge (books and inner realization) are the best ways to test the authenticity of an experience.
  • inducing a true state of trance (samadhi) since in this state information comes naturally from another plane and thus weed out phantasy as such. Of course every level of trance state induces other forms of energy and information. 

Like its takes many many years of study and practice to become a concert violist. That last one everyone seem to understand, but when it comes to occultism one think to know after reading a couple of books. We see this phenomenon on all levels in all types of religious, occult, new age groups.

So be on your guard when one hear oneself drop words and phrases that are not real experiences. Its a trap and leads to delusion and when it really goes wrong to madness. Its doesn’t solve ones real inner issues, which real realization do. Real realization extinct all those dysfunctional behavior patterns that bars us to become illuminated. That makes our Path so hard, so difficult but so rewarding as well!

Read in relation to this subject also the chapter ‘Trance’ from ‘Little essays toward truth’ from Aleister Crowely.

Love is the law, love under will.

 

 

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Spectre

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

All aspirants on the Path will sooner or later be confronted by the being that some called ‘the shadow’, others the double, Doppelgänger. Also its described by Steiner in his “Knowledge of the higher worlds’. Its also a theme in the classic ‘Zanoni’. The fact is that it is not a matter ‘if’ but a matter ‘when’. By most people when they are not initiated this being reveals itself when they die. AT the moment of death this being manifest itself as well. But then its too late to do something about it unless one knows what to do. Therefore people want to clear the conscience in the phase just before death. Which is obvious. Come in terms on what one has done in life comes back, the double feeds itself on negative behavior. More negativity the bigger and stronger this being is.

This being also described in the book ‘The Zelator’ by Mark Hedsel. Its a very important part of the Work that should be overcome. And when its isn’t one never can make real progress and in some bad situations one gets more and more dragged into negative behavior.

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What exactly is this being? Its a part of oneself that is fed by negative thoughts and deeds and isn’t interested in spiritual progress at all. Its cunning but cold hearted. It actually don’t care about others. Real progress on the Path, not matter what traction one follows the result is that one is more and more open to others, better capable of seeing the bigger picture, being more kind, more flexible and willing to help others. All positive characteristics that fits a human being that is evolved. This ‘shadow’ being is actually the opposite.  Methods of overcoming this are diverse and there is not ‘one’ remedy. Because this being is part of oneself in the negative sense. During the process of initiation it becomes more and more clear what this being is, and what one can do to transform it. Its therefore important to be in a position to have a proper guide ( in ones system) to guide the aspirant through this process. My self encounter this being about 10 years ago when I was in the process of ‘inner alchemy’. Its was a real shock to meet this ‘being’ it encompass the horror related to ones personal idea what a horrific being is. Its can come in many forms and all those forms are projections form the mind when its about the form. the nature of this being is another story. I was fortunate enough to have the help that was required and thus was able to solve this issue. I have to say that my life never is the same after that.

One should take in consideration that this being is very, very cunning and is very manipulative nine times out of ten one has no idea the ‘double’ or ‘spectre’ as William Blake called it is pulling the strings. An ordinary person has no idea and therefore people are easily victim of negative behavior when manipulated also from outside. It feeds from negative actions and thoughts. This is one of the reasons sometimes people do things no one ever expected they will do. This is common knowledge in the esoteric psychology. But its not in the mundane world. To sum up some signposts when this being is pulling strings:

  • negative behavior (destructive thoughts and behavior).
  • depressing thoughts
  • low self esteem, or opposite in extreme.
  • violent.
  • egoistic.
  • narcistic.
  • negative thinking.
  • cruel to others including animals or oneself.
  • lying.
  • manipulative.
  • not really interested in others. Only personal gain.

This is why that our diary is so important since its can reveal parts of this signs in behavior. One of the biggest problems is when one hunt this being. This so the worse thing one can do. So be warned, don’t hunt it, don’t seek it! When done it will get you and will harm you very much, this being is much more cunning then you. It will reveal itself when the time is there, this revelation can be shocking. Its a subject that isn’t talked about very much in the outside world and easily overlooked. Dealing with it in the wrong way can be very dangerous. Same as provoking it from others. It can make people very violent. I have seen cases, also at my work when this being is provoked and the person had no idea what happened. It really take you over. How many people don’t say: ‘Oh! did I do this? or ‘I wasn’t myself’. A big change this being was in charge at that moment. Its also said that at more spiritual evolved persons it takes much longer before it manifest. By those who aren’t much evolved it comes very quickly. They give up very soon, get angry or have all kind of ego issues with others all the time. They want to change everything, want to impress etc etc.

This is why we do our daily practices, meditations, rituals, prayers, training the mind. Since when we become more and more aware what is going on inside we get more grip on ourselves and our inner life. This results in a better grip and control in the outer world. Only with overcoming this we can climb hight upon the mountain of initiation.

Important Note.

Its very important to embrace this being, to merge with it  in order to become a full initiate. Not to reject it, or try to destroy it because it a part of ourself, its a part we need to become complete. We should come into terms with it and that is the task of the magician to accomplish. Therefore its a very importany task of the magician to deal with it properly as part of the Great Work. At the end ‘good and evil’ are One. Its all a part of the illusion that there is duality as such.  But its even something that should be expand to to a larger consciouness. Like in our microcosmic, it in the macrosomic as well, ultimately they are One as well. There is the Tree of Life and its counterpart the Tree of Death. Both sides need to be explored. It has nothing to do with a place one should avoid as many think becasue of our upbringing in a old ‘Christian’ worldview and supression of the ‘forgotten Ones’ and  that we should destroy evil. Our society always want to us to see the world in ‘good an bad’ but it are both sides of one coin. Social conditioning makes this task even more diffucult to get rid of those hangups. So exploration and coming in terms with of the so called ‘dark side’ is as important as the so called ‘good side’. The so called ‘forgotten Ones’ as Kenneth Grant calls them, are supressend in our subconscioussness (mainly by Christianity) for about 2000 years as long as wel are not coming in terms with them they will take it over when one is not balanced. We see all over the world what that brings us, wars, dictators, rape, murder etc. Surpression is not the answer and only makes it more dangerous. The both sides are needed to become ‘One’ to become ‘None.

 

Love is the law, love under will.

 

©Frater Parusha